Pressure!!

It has slowly been building over the last week, and actually the day before we left Disneyland.  That is stress.  Being is Disneyland - being on vacation for that matter was nice.  I didn't have to think too hard about what to eat,  just walked across the street and someone made it for me.  Or, wonder if I taken tomorrow's dinner to defrost, or if it will thaw in time, or school stuff, or hear how much emily hates school, and how she wants me to homeschool her again, or ANYTHING!  It's such a blessing to be able to take a break from life.  But... the last night in California, I peeked at my business email, and that's when it started.  I was starting to think about planning photoshoots, and worry if people are going to pay for their photoshoots, and how to go about _______.  Oh it's endless!  Your mind can really keep itself busy if you let it. 
Well, I've been quite busy with my photography and on top of it, Old Navy has scheduled me for everyday that I said that I was available.  Thinking that was too much to handle I chose to cut my availability drastically.  I felt so good last night, thinking about what I would do around the house with my free time, but that didn't last long.  Went to check my email to find out that they had scheduled me everyday next week again!  AND up it went again!  My heart rate, my breathing, the pressure on my chest...not fun.  This emotional rollercoaster can't be good for my body.  I talked to my boss, and it turns out that it is only for one more week, and then i have the hours that I want.  So i just have to press through, and try to stay positive.  Everything usually works out it the end...it's just waiting - the in between part that kills me!  Speaking of dinner, I should go make some.  peace out.

Colorpages for Mom

I'm feeling much better after going to bed early two nights in a row. But, I think I'm pushing it again by staying up late to fold laundry and watching "Rent". I don't know why I'm watching it. The music isn't that good, but it's better when you can see what they are singing about. I've tried to listen to the soundtrack online and couldn't handle it. The melody is nice, and the harmonies are INCREDIBLE but the lyrics are like talking at times and can be quite bizarre to listen to one of the songs by itself. You have no idea what they're talking about!

Ok this is a weird segway, but do you like coloring? I love it, and i confess that I love to look at the coloring section at Michael's - you know where you can buy those felt posters. I want to buy one that would take you forever to color, but then I think forward and it really would kill me to not finish it. And WHO has time to color when there's more important things to do like _________. But that all changed when I found this site! http://www.colorpagesformom.com/ Yes, a FREE coloring site with small manageable projects. I love geometric patterns, but they have flowers, butterflies...and it's for MOMS! That alone gives me permission to color!

tired...

I sooo wish I had the energy to post something meaningful today, but I am really tired.  Did a photoshoot yesterday..and that was INCREDIBLE!  I'm so happy with how the pictures came out!  But when I got home, I crashed and woke up at 4 in the morning!!!!  NOT cool!  But I do feel inspired to write, because a friend from church said that she read my blog and really liked it!  (yes you know who you are mystery person ).  And...I do have a couple meaningful topics that I would like to blog about, but not now.  too tired.  Oh..did i mention that I had to get up at 6:30 for church this morning?  uuuugh.  ok..i'm going. I feel better that I wrote at least something...but it's not all that inspiring or meaningful.