Thursday, April 23, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
I thought I would quickly share something I've been thinking about this morning, that I forgot to mention about my experience at church last sunday. I actually heard God again. I thought for SURE He was gone. It was right during communion. They invited people to come up for prayer, and also to come up and get communion. Well, silly me, I didn't notice there was some sort of order going on. I walked straight up the aisle..and then noticed there was an usher there telling people that their row it was their turn to go get communion. I was thinking, "why won't he move?!" Then after a few seconds, I figured it out. I had to wait my turn. opps. When I came back, Chris, melissa's husband said, "You know they'll have enough for everybody." Well, our turn came, and when I sat down again waiting for the when I could eat it (which was right away..my sister told me, but I didn't know that). The Holy Spirit spoke to me. I told him, "I thought you were gone!" "Nope...you just didn't realize I was here all along. When you sin, it builds a callous around your heart - desensitizes you, and the more you do it, the thicker the callous". And I got a picture in my head of Reg -the cook from the cafeteria at WIBI. He used to always take hot pans out of the oven without oven mitts and it was CRAZY! Then all of a sudden we started worship, and I couldn't enter in as I wanted. I know this sounds weird, but I could almost feel it - feel the many layers that were built up. I couldn't raise my hands like I usually do, I couldn't sing without abandon...it was horrible. But He didn't leave me...just like His word says. And that makes me happy.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
I'm writing from beautiful British Columbia. It hasn't changed too much since the last time I was here - that was...well...Christmas. Before it seemed like everytime I came to visit, something changed around here - mostly the amount of trees. When I was a kid, you had to imagine where you wanted to go, now pretty much you can see it with your eyes. The "forest" by the graveyard is gone, my "bmx track" is now a casino, but the thing that hasn't changed is the feeling of coming home.
I went to church this morning, to the church I practically spent everyday of my childhood, from grades 4 - 12 to be exact. Westside Family Fellowship, well ...it felt just like family, like I was at a family reunion! Seeing people that I haven't seen for more than 15 years, and to see their kids...wow! There was one girl, I didn't recognize her, but when I saw her daughter- I KNEW who she was! I laughed, I cried..I hugged, and was hugged in return.
It's weird, I actually went to a different church on Sundays growing up, and went to school at Westside. I don't have the connections like I have at Westside. People are so real at Westside, they don't try to hide their struggles. The times that I have come to visit, Pastor Marlo usually asks people to come up to the front and share what God has been teaching them, situations He's been guiding them through, battles and struggles. I'm impressed with how comfortable people are with standing in front of a crowd and sharing what's on their hearts. How eloquently they can pour out the situations they are in, the struggles and put it all out for everyone to see. What's even more impressive is the response from the congregation. You can feel that there is no tension, or judgement- only love. My favorite story in the Bible is where the Pharisees bring this woman who was caught in the very act of adultry. They would normally stone a woman, if there was even a rumor of this, but they CAUGHT her in the middle of it! Jesus could have said alot of things, but instead he focused on her accusers and said, "he who has no sin, let him cast the first stone". They all slowly go away, and she left alone with Jesus. And He simply says, where are your accusors? has no one condemned you?" And she says no one. He then in reply says, then neither do I. Go and sin no more.
I could talk SO much on church politics....but I will save that for another day. But I will say this. This is the kind of attitude that we need to have in church, and in our lives. We're so quick to point out other people's faults, but quickly forget that one slip and we could be in the same place. sin is sin, and to God it's all the same. To think that can treat someone without dignity and respect, based on what we see or perceive is wrong. We don't know people's hearts, only God does. And we should leave the judging up to Him.
I dream about alot of things, and one of them is to be able to move back home. I miss Prince George. I really do. A few summers ago, I got to spend a WHOLE month here. Brian hated it, because I ditched him...but I loved it! And it was so comfortable. I know the courses I would take at the college and university here. The places I would take the kids to explore- teapot mountian is tops on the list, and there are always places that still need to be discovered.
But on the other hand, I know that it will never happen. The money is not there, and I'm married to a guy who grew up in the "big city". Prince George was too small for him, and that's a big reason why we moved- oh, and did I mention the money. Still waiting for it. They never tell you that one of hardest things about marriage is sometimes you have to let go of some of your hopes and dreams, and replace them with different ones. Though, another dream that I had when I was a teenager was to live in Edmonton, and be able to shop at WEM whenever I wanted. And yes, that dream has come true, now if only I had the money to go support it!
Sunday, April 05, 2009
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
I can't believe that it's early wednesday morning...day 3 of spring break. On monday, I realized that it was only day 1 of spring break! ahhhh!!! Sunday I came home from church and it was so nice and sunny outside. I dragged the girls off their behinds and took them to the park to go sledding. that only lasted an hour. they were all laying on the ground exhausted..it was so funny. I wish I had my camera, Though..It was a big hill.
Yesterday...oh my. Haley was whining..the other two would have been happy playing Wii all day. So we went to West Edmonton Mall, to the "playplace" and I brought my camera. There is so much cool things to take pictures of there. I also got to see a couple friends there. My friend Nikki was working at a "gotta have milk" booth, and the girls played guitar hero. And I saw my friend Coral...as she was working on wedding plans. Today we went to Chuckie Cheese...I wish I would have brought a book. oh well. the girls had fun...3 hours worth! eek....crazy!! not for another 6 months!
tomorrow? ( i mean today) I'm going to run away for a couple hours and hide in the church office and help with some odd jobs. And probably go out for wings with "wic n woz" as ally calls them. The only couple friends that we have...ha ha. We almost have a few more..but brian works too much. oh well.