take me to the gym!!

I am so tired today, thought I am very proud of myself. I went to work for 6:00 and finished at 10:00. Then I headed straight for the gym where I did 30 minutes of fast cardio (thanx to brian's new playlist), and then 20 minutes of my training program. (5 pull-ups, 4 push-ups & 3 sit-ups over and over for 20 minutes). I am pleased to figure out what slowed me down last time, and that I actually did have the energy in me all along. Last time I worked out, after "Let's get Rocked" (def Lepard) there was a slower song, and THAT's where my energy fell and I didn't even realize it till today. So I kept listening to "Let's get Rocked", "Burn it to the Ground",and "So What!" (plus a few songs that I will keep to myself...but they really keep me going) before I knew it I looked down at my watch and I only had to do one more set till I was done.
I'm actually quite suprised at how well my body is jumping back. I haven't worked out since I started my job in September. I remember the first time I went to gym with Brian. I jumped on the eliptical and thought I was dying after 4 minutes! It was really sad. I couldn't catch my breath, my heart was racing so hard I thought it would come out of my chest. It was quite scary. But I pushed, and pushed myself. The funny thing is I practically grew up in a gym. My mom got me a membership when I was 12 to Centurion Gym in Prince George, BC. The reason was because the exercises that the specialist were not doing any good. I have scoliosis, and he gave me these stretches- they were so boring. I'm not suprised that they didn't do anything! So my mom suggested to him that I strengthen my back in another way - free weights. So every morning at 6 am, my mom would wake me up and we would go to the gym and work out. She worked out with me everyday till the summer, but then I would ride my bike there. (that was my cardio!! ha ha) THis wasn't just any gym. If you know Prince George, you know that Centurion is a hard core gym, with members who have had their fair share extra hormones -if you know what I mean. So just imagine a shy, sweet girl in this environment. The owner was very nice to me, and made me feel so comfortable. He was in his 40's, balding, but very much in shape. I almost feel bad, because sometimes he practically babysat me. He didn't talk much, and I was always asking him questions,"how do you make your protein shakes?" "I did my lunges..can you spot me for chest presses?? pleeeeease?" Sometimes I wonder why my mom never picked the YMCA, it's a lot more family friendly. I'm glad that she picked Centurion, because I have an appreciation for bodybuilders and how hard they train. There was plaques and posters of members who had won in various competitions. Being there made me want to go into bodybuilding, I almost did. I worked out there for 5 years then I went to an all-womens gym. I only lasted about six months there, and then I moved to Ontario about two months later.
When I had my first training session with my trainer,at the Y, we did an evaluation together, and she asked if I had any stress in my life. I pondered for a second, wow I don't! Because just a year before, I was way up to my ears in stress! I was trying to do it all, and I was doing pretty good for awhile. I atleast made it look I had it all together, but slowly things began slipping and I had come to the harsh reality that I really don't have as big as a capacity as I wished I had. I can't do everything! (and there is so much that I would like to do) I find it very hard to pace myself. I always do it all or nothing, in basically everything. Today though, after I went to the gym I went to the sushi place around the corner (my favorite "after gym" treat) and sat and read. yuuuuuum. It was so nice and relaxing. I then came home though to find brian waiting for me. I had asked him so many times over the last couple of days, but never listened to his answer. (have you ever done this? I do this with names also. I have to stop myself and focus.) So while I was out relaxing, my husband was home and made lunch for me. Hopefully I can make it up to him tomorrow. He has tomorrow off also.